Days of Joy!

Well on Friday Dec. 19th I took Kar to The Nutcracker Ballet. Wow what a day that was! I had to get up at 6:30am and those of you who know me well know i am not a morning person. Well i ended up leaving the house without breakfast that morning but i was excited to go and get Kar! When i got to the house she was looking beautiful in her little Christmas dress! We did photos before we left then we had the 45min car ride to the ballet. I never heard her ask so many questions ever. She was sooo excited to get there and i was the same way. Well We got there and she didnt want her shoes to get dirty so she asked if i would carry her till we got inside. So unable to resist the cute face she gave me when she looked at me i caved and said i would! We walked for what seemed like forever but we finally got in and got main floor seats! We were 7 rows from the stage. She could wait till it started. Part way through the first part of the play she asked the cutest thing i have ever heard. "Cindy Why aren't they talking?". Well i couldnt help but giggle at that it was too cute. She sat in my lap for most of the first half of the play then the break came. We sat there and she didnt want to wait any longer for the second part to start she wanted it to keep going so there was no break. Well when it finally did start my stomach was starting to make noises. About 10min into the second part of the ballet Kar looks and me and says "Im tired and hungry! When will it be over i want to eat?" about another 10-15mins later i am sitting there with her next to me laying in her chair watching the ballet and now i am thinking "I am hungry and tired when will this be over.". I never thought i would be the one thinking that. Well when the ballet ended she told me the directions to get home cause every turn went left right left right and that was how we got home. We went to BK for lunch and had fun little talks and she got to play in the Play place at BK. My all time fav. thing she said to me went like this "K Cindy Next time we go to the same place for the ballet i will wear this same dress, this same tights and this same shoes. Then we have to come to this same place for lunch. Understand Cindy?". K i was laughing in my head about that cause she had the most serious tone in her voice and gave me a serious look while she was doing it! I so wish i got that on video! When we got back to her house to drop her off she wanted to do her own ballet so Ma put in the cd and she put on her own little ballet for us!


Now on to my Birthday!!! So yes its official i am 19!!! As of Dec.20!!! I woke up at 10:49am and i turned on my phone thinking i would have lots of texts if not phone calls. I had 1 message on my voicemail! It was from a person very special to me. We where planning on getting together and doing something for my birthday since my family told me to find my own thing to do om my birthday. So i was trying to do just that! She ended up planning on having me over when i was done going out to eat with my fam. So when dinner was over my dad droped me off at their house. I walked in and all the kids where soo excited to see me and they all yelled Happy Birthday! Well their ma was in the other room she was asking me random questions like "Whats your fav. color? I dont have that one! Whats your next fav. color? oh well this one is close enough! Some one turn off all the lights!!!!". I am sitting at the end of the table with the kids and thinking "What on earth?" Well Ma finaly comes out of the room holding cupcakes with an orange/pink candle in one of them. They all sing to me then i get to blow out the candle. Kar and E both had me unwrap my gifts they had for me and J looked and me all sad said i dont have one ran to his gingerbread house and ripped off a candy cane handed it to me and said Happy Birthday! so i got a home made soccerball from Kar,E gave me a snowglobe with a nativity in it and a candy cane from J. well we bundled up the 4 kids and jumped in the van and took a trip to stillwater and visited a live nativity! I held the little Cait most of the time while we walked around. The funny part was when we pulled in J yelled 1 more min. we where so confused then we saw the clock it was 7:27 in 1 min i was offically 19!! so we sat there and when the min was up they bursted in to song again! When we were all done at the church we drove back home and droped off the kids and me and Ma C went to River Falls and saw Bolt!! cutest movie ever!

The next day was sunday! Well i went to church and the life shaping meal. Watched the kids for ma C while her and PB were in a meeting. Cait was attached to me like none other it was so cute she was calling me "indy" all day. Well it came time for me to go and them to go and Ma C went to take Cait out of my arm and Cait didnt want to leave it was funny she is always excited for ma! Well ma looked at her and said "You like Sydney dont you?" Cait replied " I luv Cindy!" Ok offically the cutest thing out of her mouth and it made my day!

Birthday wishes...

Well here it goes.

meet Jaime Jamgochian and that the weather will hold off till at least sunday cause i want to do stuff on my Birthday. This month has been hard dreams where crushed and fights broke out. I had a day or two that where great however i would love good weather tomorrow.

Tears from wishes....

I am normally the first person to say I love winter bad weather and all. However when it ends up messing up my Birthday wish I don't like it. My Birthday wish for the past 4 years was to be able to go see Jaime Jamgochian in concert again. So for my Birthday this year I got myself just that 2 tickets to go see Jaime Jamgochian in concert 5 days before my birthday. The concert is to be held tomorrow at 7pm in North Mankato MN.Well as we all know today we had some freezing rain oh and snow all through the day. That iced the roads and tomorrow its going to be cold with a horrible windshield. Well Great i normally dont mind at all i mean snow day for my sisters and what eve. However this time I have tears in my eyes praying for warm weather. I mean I spent the money i had set aside for my Birthday spending money for my bday and spent it on the tickets so now what i get to be out of my money and wont have the chance for quite some time to see Jaime in concert. It took 5 years before she came close enough that my parents would let me go and now cause of the weather i dont get to go and i wont have money to spend on my birthday! What a great gift i just got myself for my birthday. I cant believe this is happening to me. I try so hard not to ask for much of anything and the one time i do something for myself it bites back.Well i guess i will just have to have the same wish for the next 4 years before i get the chance to see her again.

Poems!

SINCE WHEN?

Since when have you known me my heart and my soul?
Since when have you known me my life and my mind?
Since when have you known me my tears and my sorrow?
Since when have you known me my smile and my laughter?
Since when have you known me my call and my faith?
Since when have you known me my God and my Father?

TAKE A HIKE!

As I take my hike i see the Grace of God above me.
I see the peace He gives in the swaying trees.
I see the mercy in the water rushing by me.
I see the hope in the animals running around.
I see the love in the couples passing by.
I see the beauty in the sun while it sets.
I see the dance he puts in our lives as time flies.
I see the patience of God as the night grows dark.
I see the trust in God as I climb the hill.
I see the wisdom as I watch the other hikers.
I see the understanding in watching the rain fall down.
I see the selflessness in everything i pass.
I see the friendship he gives as someone helps me after a fall.
I see the encouragement in the waves coming in with the tide.
I see the authority when i hear the wind.
I see the comfort as I sit and take in everything around me.


WHY?

Why is life hard to live when you live it for your faith.
Why can't people believe God can lead you to a place.
Why do you crush me for what i believe?
Why don't you see the life I lead?

Are you blind to the grace of God
Are people too scared to go to a place they don't know?
Are you afraid that what i believe is true?
Are you afraid you can't lead this life too?

I tell you life is hard but when you have faith you will pull through.
I tell you if you believe He will lead you!
I tell you don't be afraid its going to be ok.
I tell you you can lead this life too!


HER FATHERS.

One Father makes her feel like no matter what she does is never good enough.
The other Father makes her feel like everything she does matters.

One Father doesn't show at events he wants him to be there at.
The other Father is always there.

One Father doesn't show his love for her.
The other Father always shows his love.

One Father doesn't see the pain in her life.
The other Father reaches down to help her through it.

One Father leaves her to grow in faith alone.
The other Father is the cause of her faith.

One Father doesn't kiss his little girl or give her a hug.
The other Father kisses his little girl and gives her hugs every day.

One Father doesn't see how broken she is because of him.
The other Father is there to help mend the relationship.

One Father doesn't believe God is there.
The other Father is God who is here!